I woke up this morning with a crick in my neck. I had slept way too hard after staying up to watch the ball drop with my babies. Another year has came and gone and I was going to make this huge list of things I wanted to accomplish in the year 2018. Truth be told, I know that it's useless. I welcomed 2018 the same way that I welcomed 2017...single and home with my kids watching Dick Clarks New Years Rocking Eve. Not going to lie, I kinda wish that I was out wearing a sparkly dress kissing the love of my life when the clock struck midnight. Not this year. I was content laying on the couch with my sissy, watching the boys roll around fighting and vacuuming up popcorn kernels. I chugged my water, knowing that it was the first bottle of the day and i wish it were a glass of wine. I climbed out of bed finally around 10:30 and stumbled to the coffee pot. Today I made sure to actually put coffee grounds in the filter; Not that I know what its like to wait for coffee and get a pot of hot water. Kids were still sleeping. I sat down at my spot, sipped my coffee and waited for my munchkins to arise. I was excited about fixing them their favorite breakfast. I haven't seen them since last Monday and was ready to love on them. Tomorrow is back to work, school, dance, baseball, and all the glories of everyday life. In all of my wants, God knows I am right where I need to be. I know that, but it still doesn't change the fact I wish I knew what my 2018 held. God says in Isaiah 49:16 "See, I have engraved you in the palm of my hand" this is such a beautiful reminder that in my anxiety and my unrest that he has me. Lord knows I am a big mess and I have a hard time letting go and letting God. From experience he never leaves me nor forsakes me. As long as he is my rock, i know I wont be sinking. This year I encourage you to lean on him. Expand your prayer life, open your bible. Its a lifestyle and a process but its worth it. Love to you all.
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