Whew! Do you ever feel as though your blessing is not coming? That everyone around you is so happy and in complete bliss and your over here a hot mess? Look, I try to be so strong sometimes and act as though I am content in all that I am in right now. Sometimes though, when I see someone update their status in a relationship....I try to talk myself out of throwing my phone. Or , when I see someone graduating school, when i have 2 years left...I want to burn my laptop. Ok ok maybe a little harsh but AHHHHHH. I feel like a spoiled little kid. Kicking and screaming because through all the things God has blessed me with I still want more, or better. You can find yourself bitter. Bitter towards others and God. When you are hurting, needing a miracle. When your broke and need financial help, or when you are lonely and would like company. As hard as it may be, trust him. I have found the biggest blessing was worshipping him while i wait. Singing when I couldn't find my voice. If the stars are made to worship, so will I.
I have come so far over the past 4 years. Excuse me, God has brought me this far in 4 years. I know that I would never be where I am without him. 4 years ago I had nothing. No home, no car, no job...all i had was things I had acquired in my home over the course of my 9 year marriage. Slowly but surely I have been in my own place now for 3 years, own my own car, have a steady job, started back to school, and have made so many new friends and connections. Basically I started over. Being here at 35 it's hard for your mind not to shift to worldly things and want a New car, New house, better job and even a man to share all that with. Crazy as I sounds I am just now realizing that what I want for me is now what God has for me. Thats hard right? Even when I know that what God has for me is far more than anything I could imagine.
There is purpose and desire in each and everyone of us. God has a timing and he knows where and exactly when. You can live 35 years and he can be preparing you the entire way for you to step into your calling. You can be 18 and step right in. There is no age limit for God. The beautiful thing is, he will use you even if you don't walk close to him. In Isaiah 45 God Choose Cyrus. verse 5 "I am the Lord; there is no other God. I have equipped you for battle, though you don't even know me, 6 so all the world from east to west will know there is no other God.
Don't be discouraged where you are at. Don't believe the lies of the enemy. You are chosen. You are set apart. (Isaiah 45:2) This is what the Lord says; I will go before you Cyrus and level the mountains. I will smash down gates of bronze and cut through bars of iron.
He will make a way, when there is no way.
I want to encourage you to do 3 things.
1. Make time in your schedule to read Gods word. It will be like a breath of fresh air.
2. Pray, talk to God. His desire is for you to Grow closer to him.
3. I know its not November, but find something new everyday to specifically be thankful for.
Love to you all
